Total pages in book: 77
Estimated words: 72091 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 360(@200wpm)___ 288(@250wpm)___ 240(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 72091 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 360(@200wpm)___ 288(@250wpm)___ 240(@300wpm)
And then we were better, almost better than before. Mom and Dad got back together, he quit drinking, and I started counseling. Met Elliot. Came out of my shell with the tentative steps of a newborn fawn.
And then, two years after I graduated, Rick and Lance walked into my diner. They were full of swagger and money and fun. When they dangled Vegas in front of me, I snatched it from their grasp.
“Pass the gravy, Bell.”
I passed the dish and watched Mom tuck a bit of silver hair behind her ear, her eyes on the dark liquid as she spooned it out.
“The chicken’s good.”
She nodded. “I made plenty. Enough for you to take some home to your boys.”
I smiled, thinking of Mom’s first meeting with Lance and Rick. She’d immediately labeled them as too thin, not properly taken care of, and in sore need of good women. Ever since then, she’d been trying to fatten them up, tame their wild ways, and get them married off.
She’d been unsuccessful.
Halfway through dinner, I realized something was wrong. They were uncharacteristically quiet, their questions less invasive, their conversations more on food and weather and less on nosing around my personal life. I glanced at Mom, who carefully scooped up some corn. I moved to Dad, who eyed his tea as if he wished it were stronger. “What’s going on?”
They looked at me with the wide-eyed innocence of the guilty.
“What do you mean?” Mom took an unusually large bite of cornbread.
“You guys are being weird. No one’s asked me who I’m dating, or if I’m on birth control, or how my exams are going.”
“Well, why—how are your exams going?” She asked the question through the mouthful of cornbread, and little specks flew out and peppered the table.
I waved her off and latched onto my father, a man who hid secrets as well as Rascal hid a bone. Which was to say that all you had to do was mention the item, and Rascal all but led you to it in an attempt to keep you away. “Dad. What’s going on?”
He lifted his eyes from his drink to me, then they ricocheted off to the right. “John Wright and his son got into some trouble.”
It was so unexpected that I sat back, a little of my breath lost with the impact of his name. “Another girl?”
He shook his head. “No, no. Not that kind of trouble. Someone roughed him up. Roughed both of them up.”
That wasn’t exactly a shock. The pair were assholes. They couldn’t walk into a place without offending someone, and they walked into a lot of places. I gave my best attempt at a casual shrug. “How’d you hear about it?”
Mom cleared her throat and leaned forward, gripping my hand. “Let’s not talk about this at dinner. Especially, not the details.”
Not the details? I pulled my hand from hers and stared at my father, willing the information out of him. “Can you just spit it out? What happened?”
He sighed, sitting back in his seat. “They were castrated. Got their balls cut off. And were beaten almost to death, according to Jimmy.”
Castrated? I unexpectedly laughed, the sound bursting out of me in a horrific bark of sound, something that startled both of my parents, as well as myself. I clapped a hand over my mouth, swallowing the cruel sound before it repeated itself.
It wasn’t funny. It couldn’t be funny. But that’s how my mind handled it. I didn’t think about the look in John’s eyes as he had held me down. I didn’t think about the way they’d encouraged each other, the feel of their sweaty skin against mine, the smell of their breath, the painful invasion and my choked begs that only seemed to encourage them more.
Someone had cut their balls off.
My hysteria faded a little and I swallowed, trying to respect my mother and calm my emotions. “Who did it?”
Dad shrugged. “They don’t know. No one had heard from them for a while, and John’s wife finally called the police. They found them on a dirt road, ten miles outside of town, covered in blood and dust. They were trying to walk home and didn’t make it.”
“But they’re alive.”
I’m surprised that mattered to me. After so many nights of wishing them dead, I was shocked to discover that it did matter to me. I liked the idea of a ball-less Johnny better than the idea of a dead one.
He nodded. “Yep.”
I examined his expression, then my mother’s. In prior mentions of my rape, they’d always carried the same looks—a mix of regret and guilt and pain. But now, they looked almost relieved that something—perhaps karma—had handed my monsters their punishment. I wondered what my own expression gave away. Did it show the relief I finally felt, knowing that they would never be able to rape another girl?