Total pages in book: 105
Estimated words: 100301 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 502(@200wpm)___ 401(@250wpm)___ 334(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 100301 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 502(@200wpm)___ 401(@250wpm)___ 334(@300wpm)
“Well, first, I’ve had a lot of sex. I’ve done some kinky things, but not…officially? I don’t know if that’s the right word.”
“Okay.”
“I’ve been spanked, which was a fun, sexy thing. I have no experience with punishment, safe words, nothing other than a hand. Honestly, I’m pretty sure a hand is all I’d like…maybe a little more. I’m not into any kind of hard-core pain. Finley said using a certain kind of soft flogger might work, so I’d be willing to try that.”
He nodded.
“I’ve had threesomes. I’m into both voyeurism and exhibitionism—big-time—like the kind of stuff we did with Finley and Aidan. I’ve never actually fucked in front of people, but I’ve seen people get fucked.”
“Okay. This all sounds good.”
This next part was a little harder to explain. “I like the idea of being told what to do…the whole kneeling thing like Finley does? Hot. I’m not into crawling or kneeling all the time, I don’t think. It’s sexy, but I’m not sure I would be into it as much as Finley is. And though I like the idea of someone else being in charge, I don’t want to serve in the same way Fin does. I don’t have a need to take care of your home or wash your dishes. Not my kink.”
“Duly noted.”
“I do like the way Aidan always takes care of Finley. That definitely interests me.” My eyes angled down. I hadn’t expected to be embarrassed, but I was.
“Look at me,” David said gently, and I did. “Finish. There’s no shame here.”
“I just… I’ve never had anyone take care of me before. I want to feel…precious to someone. I tease Ian and Finley and say I want a sugar daddy, but then Ian said something that got me thinking. It’s not about the money and things. I don’t want nice things in exchange for sex. I just want to feel loved, even if it’s not really love and I know it. What I mean is, I know it’s just hooking up, which I want, but being taken care of gives the feeling of being loved or important. Does that make sense?” Who knew there was so much to talk about when it came to kink? Usually when I was going to fuck someone, we simply fucked.
“It does. You might want a Daddy. Or you might want to play around with that during sex. You might realize you don’t want a Daddy at all, but some of it sounds like that’s what you want.”
“Do you do that?”
“I can.” David nodded. “I’ve been involved in kink most of my adult life. Even when I was a teenager, I knew I leaned toward being kinky. There’s not much I haven’t done.”
I didn’t want him to just have done it, though. “Do you enjoy it?”
“Yes, pet. I think I will enjoy it with you very much.”
I trembled. I liked it when David called me pet.
We spoke more about the things that interested me and those that didn’t. David asked me questions, delving deeper into my thoughts and limits on pain. We talked through some of the things I wanted to explore—throat fucking, yes; slapping, a little. The latter was more about the humiliation than the pain. Spitting was hot. I gave him some other yeses, and also hard noes for blood, scat, and anything else I knew wasn’t me. There were maybes too, like watersports.
“Let me tell you more about myself,” David said. “I can be strict, but I’m always fair. There’s nothing I enjoy more than watching a sub come undone for me. I’ll make you scream and cry and enjoy every second of it. You’ll be even more beautiful than you already are when you’re writhing beneath me.”
A full-body shudder ran through me.
“I’m very good at praise—as you could see with Finley—but humiliation too. I’ll test your limits but never go too far. If you don’t like something, I expect you to tell me. Safe words, we’ll use red and yellow.”
“Okay,” I replied, getting more excited by the second.
“I’m a switch, though I’m primarily a Dom. I’ll only be dominant with you. It has to feel right for me to go the other way.”
“Great. That all sounds good to me. I can’t imagine trying to dominate you.” I chuckled.
“Good.” He nodded. “Exclusivity? I know we’re just playing, but I’m of the mind that we should negotiate what we want or are looking for. If we’re having sex regularly, we have the right to know if there will be other people. Everyone might not agree, but that’s how I feel.”
“I can take it or leave it. I’m not picky about that. I mean, it’s not like we’re trying to fall in love with each other. I’m looking for someone I trust to explore this side of me with, but I would hope, if you do fuck anyone else, you’d be safe.”