Total pages in book: 93
Estimated words: 88841 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 444(@200wpm)___ 355(@250wpm)___ 296(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 88841 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 444(@200wpm)___ 355(@250wpm)___ 296(@300wpm)
Our hearts beating as one.
Our releases mixing with each other.
I’ve never been closer to anyone on such an intimate level, and it only confirms what I already knew—I’ve fallen in love with Ryder.
After several seconds of comfortable silence as we work to steady our breathing, Ryder lifts and kisses me tenderly before he pulls out and sits back on his haunches.
His eyes go straight to my pussy, where, I have no doubt, our arousal is dripping out of me. I should probably be embarrassed, but after two mind-blowing orgasms, I’m too satiated to even care.
“I came in you,” he says, reaching out and swiping his finger through our joint release, as if he needs to feel it to confirm it’s true.
I shiver at his touch and then sit up, climbing into his lap. He drops onto his butt, wrapping his arms around my waist as I encircle my arms around his neck and my legs around his torso.
“I’m clean,” I tell him. “The second I got insurance from working at Kingston, I went to the doctor to get tested.”
“I am as well,” he murmurs, “but that’s not what I’m worried about.”
His eyes meet mine, and it hits me—he’s scared that I could get pregnant.
“I’m on birth control.” I cup the sides of his scruffy face, loving the feel of his trimmed beard beneath my fingers. “And unlike your ex, I actually mean that.” I take his hand in mine and bring it up to my bicep. “Feel that?” I run his finger across a small metal bar beneath my skin. “That’s the implant. I got it less than a year ago, and it’s good for three years, so we’re good.”
I smile at Ryder, and he sighs in relief.
“Thank you. It’s not that I wouldn’t want to have a baby with you …”
“I know,” I tell him. “We’re not there yet. And there’s no rush. When Brian and I got married, he knew I was on birth control and demanded I got off it, wanting to start a family. It rubbed me the wrong way that he didn’t include Violet as part of that family, but I thought maybe he just needed time.
“When things between us began to deteriorate, I started to freak out at the thought of getting pregnant, so I went behind his back and got the implant. I couldn’t risk having a baby with him and being tied to him forever. Having a baby is a big step, and my hope is that the next time I make that commitment with someone, it’s with the man I plan to spend my life with.”
He nods in agreement. “I got so caught up in the moment that I didn’t even think about using protection. Your pussy is like magic, making me lose my damn mind.”
I choke out a laugh. “I feel you. Your dick is like a magic stick.”
I wink playfully, and Ryder chuckles.
“FYI,” he says once he’s sobered, “if you did get pregnant, I wouldn’t be upset about it. I should probably be traumatized as fuck after what Nora did, but when I’m with you, it’s like all that bullshit is left in the past, and all I can see is a future with you and our daughters.”
Unable to say anything, thanks to the huge lump of emotion lodged in my throat, I lean in and kiss Ryder. His fingers delve into the back of my hair, deepening the kiss, and with my body wrapped around his, he lays me back on the lounge chair and proceeds to make love to me all over again.
We’re both sweaty and sticky, but neither of us gives a shit. The only thing on our minds is being together.
And as we both find our release, I whisper the three words against his lips I wanted to say earlier, but couldn’t get out. “I love you.”
His body stills, his cock buried deep inside me, and as he looks into my eyes, his own filled with so much raw emotion, I can feel the words before he says them back.
“I love you,” he murmurs. “More than all the stars in the sky …”
My stomach tightens at his words. I love that he pays attention to even the small things.
He kisses the tip of my nose. “More than the moon shining down above us …” He kisses the corner of my mouth. “More than all the planets and the entire solar system.”
His lips connect with mine, and as he pours every ounce of emotion into the kiss, it flows through my veins and goes straight to my heart, filling every crack and fissure with his love, making it feel whole once again.
chapter nineteen
RYDER
Ana
I hope you guys had a good night. No rush getting the girls, but we’re making breakfast if you want to join.
I glance over at a sleeping Kira, and the only thing I want to eat is her.