Total pages in book: 149
Estimated words: 141255 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 706(@200wpm)___ 565(@250wpm)___ 471(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 141255 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 706(@200wpm)___ 565(@250wpm)___ 471(@300wpm)
“Submissives aren’t shells, man. They want to please their Dom, ache for it even. A submissive can feel whole when they connect with their partner. They place a huge amount of trust on you and it’s a big responsibility. It’s really easy to fuck it up so you gotta be careful but if you do it right, she’ll get off on it.”
I nodded. “I know submissive doesn’t mean broken. But because she is, maybe it’d hold her back in future.”
“You’ll have to see how it plays out. Me and Tia have had a rocky road in the bedroom. It’s a work-in-progress keeping myself in check, not fucking it all up. At times I go too far but sometimes that’s because she pushes the boundaries. I created a monster, but I fucking love the monster,” he shrugged. “Nothing’s really wrong between two people in bed if it means you both get something out of it.”
I shrugged as well. “We’ll see how it goes. Not gonna lie, it was hot when my ex used to play the submissive sex kitten. Angel ain’t playin’, though. It’s her. But that’s because they broke her. She took 19 days to break, man. 19. Most of those slaves were broken in 3 or 4 days. What does that say about how strong-willed she was before? If she were well, she probably wouldn’t want this. When she gets well, maybe she’ll be disgusted with the shit we did when she wasn’t, and what if she hates me for it. Fuck, that’s why I hesitated, man. I didn’t want to get in deep with someone broken because if they can be fixed, how do you know how to be? How do you know you’re not keepin’ them broken?”
“You’re overthinking it. Just take cues from your girl. Lots of strong women are submissive in bed. Believe me, I’ve seen it. You see how it goes. You see how she is as she gets well and then you two decide if that’s the way you wanna keep playing.” Tommy’s eyes shot up to behind me. I looked over my shoulder.
Angel was in the doorway. She had a little frown on her face. I didn’t know how much she’d heard.
“Hey, baby,” I said hesitantly, stubbing out my cigarette. Tommy clapped me on the shoulder and then went back inside.
“Hi,” she said softly.
“Get over here.” I could see by her face that she was trying to mask how she felt about whatever she’d heard of our conversation.
I pulled her against my chest and then she softly said, “If anyone can fix me, it’s you. But if you don’t want the job, I won’t hold it against you. I really won’t. I don’t want to be a ball and chain for you.”
“Baby, I’m sorry you heard that. I already told you I was all in. I am. I wanna be. I just wanna do right by you. I feel like a heel for getting involved with you in a way that may make you later think I took advantage. You gotta see it my way. I was absolutely not going to go there with you because I didn’t wanna be like my old man. But you and me, we have something. I want this. I just want to do this right. I’m doing things blind here, baby.”
“I was always a submissive, Dare. Always. Always liked it rough and I don’t think that’ll change.”
“Okay, baby. It’s premature to talk about this but you might be different, want something different when you’re past the trauma. And if you don’t ever wanna be submissive again, it’s not a deal breaker for me. Okay? We’ll just take things a day at a time. I don’t want you thinkin’ you’ve got to be something specific to keep me happy. This relationship has two people in it. We will find our way together.”
“And I don’t want to make you be something you’re not just because I’m so broken. It’s good to know that you like it, though. I know a Dom when I see one and it comes natural to you. That makes me feel a little better about things. Please don’t feel guilty for dominating me. It’s what I want. It’s what I need.”
“Things are beautiful between us in the bedroom, Angel. I just wanna keep it that way. I don’t generally share details of my sex life, you should know, but Tommy and I, we’re close. He used to frequent the BDSM club scene and he’s been around the slave trade more than me; my experience is limited to picking you up at Kruna. He’s the closest to an authority on the subject I’ve got and he has insight here. And having advice from Lisa, too, hopefully I can help you.”
“Dare, it’s fine that you talk to others about it. It doesn’t bother me.”