Total pages in book: 99
Estimated words: 92957 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 465(@200wpm)___ 372(@250wpm)___ 310(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 92957 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 465(@200wpm)___ 372(@250wpm)___ 310(@300wpm)
“It’ll be alright.” I look to see Grandfather sitting in one of the upholstered chairs, his gnarled hand gripping the top of his cane. “Stay strong.”
I nod and lift my head. I will.
When my brothers enter the room, however, I move without thinking. I run to them. For once, I feel like a little girl again—safe, loved, and protected. These are my brothers, my flesh and blood.
How will I ever choose between the family who raised me and the one I’ve come to love here?
Mikhail’s arms are wide as I launch into his bear-like hug. My oldest brother, my protector. We have always been close, even when we fought like cats and dogs as kids. Now, in his arms, I feel like a part of me that was missing has returned.
“God, we were so scared,” he says in my ear. “I felt so guilty for allowing you to come here and then knowing you were gone. Polina, I can’t tell you how good it is to see you’re alright.” He holds me in front of him. “You’ll tell us the truth about how he treated you?”
I nod. “I am. Oh god, I’ve missed you all so much.”
I’m crying freely by the time Lev hugs me. Ollie comes in to join us, and in seconds, I’m a blubbering mess, and we all try to talk at once. Viktor can practically put his arms around all of us, but it’s a crying, messy, sniffy reunion. We’re all talking at once.
“I couldn’t remember you,” I sniff, swiping at my eyes. “I didn’t know who I was, and they told me I’d remember you, but—”
“—couldn't find you. Looked everywhere. Scoured Russia until—”
“—beside ourselves.”
“Are you sure you’re alright?” It’s Mikhail, who’s pried the others off me and now holds me at arm’s length, his eyes boring into mine. Speaking in a low tone, he leans in close. “We don’t have much time, Polina. Did he hurt you?”
Did he hurt me?
How do I answer that question?
Did he tie me to his bed and lie to me, telling me I was his wife and I’d taken vows?
Yes.
Did he dominate me, force obedience from me, and make good on punishing me when I pushed back?
He did.
I swallow hard.
Did he show me he loved me? Did he prove himself to be authentic and real and so absolutely devoted he’d burn the world for me?
He did.
So I give Mikhail a watery smile. “Hurt me? It was nothing I couldn’t handle.” And when Mikhail’s eyes narrow on me, I state the argument he can’t defeat. “He did nothing you wouldn’t have done, Mikhail. Nothing any of you wouldn’t have done.”
Mikhail, my fierce and protective warrior of a brother, who tethered his own wife to him as a form of punishment for hacking into the Bratva of The Cove. Aleksandr, madly in love and father to the children of his own wife, promised to him in a loveless union of an arranged marriage. I could go on because each one of them could tell a similar story of an unlikely union, family loyalty, and love despite the odds.
My mother enters the room. She stares at me for a few seconds as if she can’t believe her eyes before she rushes to me. The familiar warmth of her embrace makes something deep inside me unravel.
Mom.
I fit here. I belong here. It’s as familiar to me as my own two hands being held by her.
Mom.
“I’m sorry,” she whispers in my ear. “I’m partly to blame for all this, and I hope you find it in your heart to forgive me.”
I wipe at my eyes. “I think there’s a lot of forgiveness that will have to be granted.”
But how is she possibly to blame?
The tension in the room is palpable, but we’re closer to the truth than we’ve ever been.
“Sit down, everyone, please,” Zoya says softly in her childlike voice as she enters the room carrying a large tray of tea and cups. “I find it’s easier to have a pleasant conversation when we’re sitting.”
I love her so. Rafail takes the tray from her despite her protests and slides it onto the coffee table. “Semyon. Get the vodka for those of us who need something stronger than tea.”
“You’re wise, Zoya,” Grandfather says, his eyes twinkling at her. “You have more than your parents to thank for that.”
She’s so cute when she blushes.
Yana sits up straight, her eyes never leaving Rafail. “Where’s Gleb?”
“In holding.”
Yana nods and turns her focus straight to Ekaterina. “As I said to the others, there’s a shortage of women in these two families, so we must stand together. Allow me to make some introductions.”
I barely hear her. My gaze is trained on Rafail, who paces behind the sofa despite Zoya’s request. His friend Vadka has joined us.
“Before we begin,” my mother starts. She places her teacup down on a saucer, her hands trembling. “I’m afraid that some of this… is my fault.” Her eyes shimmering with tears, she turns to me. “I… I wanted a daughter, Polina. So badly.”