Total pages in book: 87
Estimated words: 83236 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 416(@200wpm)___ 333(@250wpm)___ 277(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 83236 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 416(@200wpm)___ 333(@250wpm)___ 277(@300wpm)
“Peaches—”
“I’m not kidding. This is nonnegotiable. If you can’t be satisfied with just me, then we need to walk away from one another right now.”
He changes my position so that I’m straddling him. Then he presses a kiss on my forehead, before placing a hand on each said of my face. “Calm down, Skylar. I’m never going to touch another woman. I belong to you and you alone,” he reassures me. I don’t really understand though.
“But—”
“And I told you that you were mine now, too. There will never be another man allowed to touch what is mine.”
I relax slightly, but my forehead is still scrunched up because I don’t truly understand what he’s talking about. “Then what exactly are you saying?”
“It goes back to what I was discussing on the phone conversation with Raze that had you confused,” he begins. Now that I’m not completely panicked, one of his hands moves down to my hip, while another rests along the side of my neck. I like that he’s maintaining contact with me. It’s reassuring and I need that from him.
“Tell me,” I urge.
“That day on the phone, you couldn’t hear what I was answering, baby.”
“I’m listening.”
He nods before continuing. “I was telling Raze that I felt guilty for hurting you all those years because I have always wanted you. Hell, I’m pretty sure that I’ve been in love with you since that first night.”
“You loved me back then?” I ask, trying to wrap my mind around that.
“At first sight and I don’t give a fuck how corny that sounds. It’s true. You have always been the only woman I wanted to claim permanently. I just felt you were always going to be out of my reach. I knew you deserved better than me. Fuck, that’s the only reason there were that many club girls to begin with. I knew I’d never have an old lady. So, sex lost any real meaning for me. It was just about getting off. If I couldn’t have you, Peaches, I didn’t want anyone else.”
“Torin,” I murmur. I know most women probably would roll their eyes at what he’s saying, but I don’t. I know he’s being honest. I’d already decided that I didn’t care about the past, as long as I was his future.
“I’m a man who likes control, though, Skylar.”
“I’ve noticed,” I hum, pleasure filling me as I remember our last time together.
He grins at me, placing a chaste kiss against my lips. “I mean, I’m a Dom, baby. I want my woman—you—to always be submissive. Our first night together was beautiful, but I held back a huge part of who I am, so it didn’t scare you off. I didn’t want to lay everything out. You had let me see the pain I’d caused you already. There was no way I could lay more stuff at your feet. I let you take control that night. I handled you with extreme tenderness because you deserved it and it’s what you needed. I had to fight my instincts of wanting to dominate you and make you completely submit.”
“You’ve always been kind of dominant with me, Torin. What are you talking about here exactly? Do you mean like whips and chains? Collars?” I squeak out the last question, because I know that’s not for me. I don’t think I could do that—even for Torin.
He laughs a little, shaking his head. “That can be part of the lifestyle, yes. We can decide what you like. I will want to tie you up in our bed—maybe not always, but sometimes. I wouldn’t feel comfortable using a whip, but you already love when I spank you. We’ll talk about your fantasies and what your hard limits are. I would like to experiment with floggers and some other things. But, baby, whatever we do together will be for your pleasure. I will never cause you pain and we will always have a safe word. We will discuss what that is very soon.”
“This is a lot. I mean, I was expecting some of it. I’m not blind to how dominant you are. Still, I kind of need to wrap my head around it,” I explain.
He grimaces a little but doesn’t reply. He takes a breath and keeps explaining. “It may seem like I am the one in control of our relationship, Skylar, but that’s a mistake an outsider would make. Once we settle together completely, you’ll see. You are the one in control. You will always be the one to determine how far we go and when too much is just … too much. I never want you to do anything you don’t like just because you think I need it. Honest to God, woman, if all we have is what we did together last night? That’s more than enough for me. It’s more beautiful than anything I’ve ever experienced. You’re it for me. You’re ultimately the most important thing in the world to me. I wouldn’t even tell you all this if I didn’t think that you weren’t made for this, baby.”