Total pages in book: 87
Estimated words: 83236 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 416(@200wpm)___ 333(@250wpm)___ 277(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 83236 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 416(@200wpm)___ 333(@250wpm)___ 277(@300wpm)
“Torin, I’m kind of headstrong and independent. I’m not really the type to hand over control of my life to anyone,” I tell him, worried for the first time that we might not be able to make this work between us.
“This is where you misunderstand the lifestyle, Peaches. I don’t expect you to bow down to me. I like complete control in the bedroom, but there will be only parts of that which will filter into our everyday lives. I’m going to be possessive. I don’t want other men sniffing around you. Your safety will always be my biggest concern. I also enjoy having you close, like when we were at the restaurant and I fed you?”
“Yeah,” I answer, blushing.
“You liked that, didn’t you, baby?”
“Yes …”
“I want to see to your needs. I want to draw you a bath and wash your hair, shave or wax your legs and that beautiful pussy of yours—”
“I usually go to a spa,” I explain.
“I’ll make sure you get that, too. Yet there will be times when I want it to be me who pampers you. I wasn’t kidding. Taking care of you is something I get pleasure from doing. It brings me peace. When you’re sick, I’ll be right there. Any time that you need anything, I am going to be there. Some women would hate that life. They’d probably complain it suffocates them. I happen to think that if you completely let go and trust me, you’ll love it.”
“What makes you so sure?” I ask, already acknowledging in my head that I probably will.
“Fair warning, I think if you tried to put a collar on me, I’d kill you,” I grumble. I’m surprised when it makes him laugh.
“Some women enjoy it, Peaches. I’ll never force you into anything. All I ask is you let me lead you. Together we will find exactly what works for both of us. My ultimate goal will always be your happiness. I may punish you when you do something that puts yourself in danger or disrespect what we have together, but I can promise you that you will always like the punishment. I would never hurt you or degrade you. That’s not who I am. My sole purpose in life is to make you happy and bring you pleasure. That’s it, honey. Other couples deep in the lifestyle enjoy other things and that’s good for them. You and I will find out what you like and who we are together. If you don’t like something, then you tell me. I’ll proceed to find something else that brings us both pleasure. It’s that simple.”
“And the clubs?”
“I’ll take you to one and you can make up your mind. There are private rooms where it will be just the two of us. There are also rooms with two-way glass, where we can watch other couples together, or they can watch us—depending on your choice. You can choose the extent we play, but there will only ever be the two of us touching each other. No one gets that privilege but me when it comes to your body, Skylar.”
“And no one else touches you,” I add possessively.
“Exactly,” he agrees at once.
“Do you truly think our first night together was a mistake?”
“Fuck no. Making love to you could never be a mistake. I loved every second. I just should have made it clear to you what I wanted for us before I claimed you. I should have given you a choice. You don’t get that now, because honestly, baby, I can’t give you up. I made the mistake of not talking to you about the controlling asshole I am. That is the only thing I needed to correct about that night. I know my lifestyle can be hard to accept. It’s also just another in a long list of reasons I stayed away from you for three years.”
“I’m scared that I won’t be able to make you truly happy, Torin. Everyone knows you like multiple partners at a time.”
“That was getting off, Skylar. That wasn’t what I needed. Don’t judge me based on my past. You make me happy.”
I’d be lying if I didn’t say I wasn’t still nervous about being enough for him, but I know that no matter what, Torin wouldn’t lie to me. I lean up and kiss him softly on the lips. “I’ll find a way to be with you tonight. We’ll get Diego’s funeral over and then figure out a time to talk to my parents.”
“You’re going to be in my bed every night from here on out, Skylar. You belong to me, just like I belong to you. We’re a part of one another.”
“Okay, Tor,” I answer, shortening his name the way he loves when we’re intimate. I smile as he groans. I’m instantly rewarded with his kiss.