Total pages in book: 128
Estimated words: 125020 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 625(@200wpm)___ 500(@250wpm)___ 417(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 125020 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 625(@200wpm)___ 500(@250wpm)___ 417(@300wpm)
There’s an unsure look in her eyes that’s never been there like this before. I hate seeing it. However, I came to a realization upstairs.
This entire time I’ve been running from who I am. What happened in Greece happened because that’s who I am. I didn’t get that before.
All my life, my grandfather has given me a choice, but if I’m honest with myself. I can’t change the core of who I am. What disturbed me as a child wasn’t what I saw. It was the fact that I wanted to justify my father’s actions.
I went from justifying to trying to figure out how I would have done it cleaner, better, smarter. As I answered those things, I found myself traumatized to know I could be so ruthless, evil, and calculated.
I blink my thoughts away and try to get to the bottom of this strain I feel. “We haven’t been able to stop to talk about what happened. Are you okay? Are we still okay?”
Tears fill her eyes and her lips begin to tremble. Suddenly, desperation fills me. It’s like I’m watching my world go up in smoke. It’s all slipping through my fingers.
“Talk to me, Shawn. Tell me what’s going on in your head,” I plead.
“I don’t know what to think, so I’m just not thinking,” she says just above a whisper.
“And us?”
“I don’t know, Joshua.”
“What do you mean you don’t know?”
Her nostrils flare in anger. “I don’t know, babe. Let me think.
“I watched you kill a man with your bare hands, and in the next breath, we fucked like nothing happened and we haven’t stopped to take a breath since. Only to return to you being accused of a murder we both know you didn’t commit.
“I don’t know how I feel about anything, Josh. I’m scared out of my mind. I don’t know what’s going to happen. We could lose everything we’ve been working for. All the lying I’ve been doing could’ve been for nothing.
“And that’s the part that’s about to make this all come crashing down. I hurt Ven. I see I did. I found everything I want but at what cost? I’m hurting people now,” she says, the last part on a gasp.
These rooms are supposed to be soundproof, but I still move to the sound system Ox keeps down here to do inventory. I link my phone to the system and start to play “If You Let Me” by Sinead Harnett, then crank up the volume. This one means something to us.
Turning back to Shawna, I crowd her space and grab a handful of her hair to tug her head back and look down into her eyes. I swallow hard, trying to find the right words.
“None of what you just said is a lie, but I need you to trust me,” I breathe against her lips. “I can’t change who I am, but you have to know I did that for you. Just like I’m going to fix all of this for us. No matter what it takes.”
“I don’t want to lose you. I can’t do this without you.”
“You will never lose me and you won’t have to,” I say before I crush her lips with mine.
I deepen the kiss as I release her hair and roam my hands all over her body, settling with my palms on her ass as I lift her and walk her to the large wooden crate in the corner. It’s just the right height to allow me to step between her legs and continue to devour her mouth.
She works on the buttons of my dress shirt as I claw my fingers up her thigh and beneath her dress. I continue to consume her mouth as I find her heat. I’m not surprised to find her wet as I drag the backs of my fingers against her weeping folds.
She sucks my lower lip into her mouth, pulling a groan from deep in my chest. I pull her panties down to get better access to her core. She sucks my tongue into her mouth.
I grin as I shove two fingers into her. She nearly jumps up off the crate. I still her with a hand on her waist, working her hot pussy with the other.
“I love you,” I groan into her mouth.
“Oh, God, Joshua. I love you too.”
Relief fills me. Hearing those words, I know I can make it all right. As long as I have her, I can do anything. She’s become my everything.
She moves frantically to get her panties the rest of the way off while I continue to work her to orgasm. Her body begins to tremble and she gushes all over my hand. Lifting my soaked hand to my lips, I suck the digits clean, then reach to shove them into her mouth.
Shawna works to free me of my pants. Not removing my fingers from her mouth, I shove my tongue in and explore her cavern. Grabbing hold of her ass, I bring her to the edge of her perch.