Total pages in book: 128
Estimated words: 125020 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 625(@200wpm)___ 500(@250wpm)___ 417(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 125020 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 625(@200wpm)___ 500(@250wpm)___ 417(@300wpm)
He lifts me onto his waist and heads for the swing seat. I close my eyes and start to pray. Josh kisses my temple and breathes a laugh against my skin.
“I can’t, I can’t, I can’t,” I say as I feel him sit and the swing is pulled back.
“Look at me, baby,” he says.
I peek my eyes open and look into his blue-gray ones. He’s smiling from ear to ear as he looks back at me. I search his face, in awe that this is the man I’m falling in love with.
“Put your hands on the ropes,” he coaxes. He then places his hands right above mine. Still with his gaze locked on mine, he speaks to my thoughts right before we’re released. “I love you.”
I can’t help but scream as we float out over the forest. The way my belly drops and my heart swells is a feeling I can’t even describe.
He kisses my neck as we swing out. I’ve never felt more free in my life. I look into his eyes and smile.
“I love you too.”
He leans in and kisses me hard. I’m so glad I did this. By the time we’re back on the cliff, the adrenaline is still pumping, and I want to go again.
Chapter 50
Come Together
Kelex
After getting back and checking on the gang in their room, we sat and listened to their excitement over their day. Vernice got to swim in the pool and ride the water slide.
Cat found some girls her age to hang with and had a blast. True made a few beats and wrote some songs. All in all, everyone had a great day.
As for Shawna and I, I think we’re still on a high from that cliff-top swing. I wasn’t sure I was going to get her to do it at first. However, I’m glad I did.
I meant what I said. I love her. With everything I am, I’ve fallen for Shawna. When she didn’t make me feel some way as I revealed my scars, I tried not to get emotional. I’m so close to what I’ve always wanted I can’t breathe.
“Do you need the lights?”
“No, the light from the laptop is enough.”
I get a box of condoms from my bag and open them, pouring the packets onto the nightstand. Shawna looks up from her laptop and gives me a shy smile. “I’m going to jump in the shower,” I say as I move to turn off all the lights and light some candles.
“Okay, I’m going to load these pictures and clear my SIM card.”
I nod. She took a shower when we first came into the room. I warred with whether or not I should join her. Seeing my torso was one thing. What’s going to happen when she sees the rest?
I hate this self-doubt. It’s not like me. I never used to second-guess myself or be this in my head. Now I’m standing in the shower, letting my thoughts swallow me.
I’m so lost in thought I spin around in shock when my name is called. There she stands, completely naked, watching me. I hold my breath, waiting for her gaze to drop and her face to contort in disgust.
I reach to push my wet hair out of my eyes and watch her more closely. She enters the shower and comes to me. Then she places her trembling hands on my waist and looks up into my eyes.
“Can I touch you? Is this okay?”
I close my eyes, feeling like an asshole. She’s trembling because she’s just as nervous as I am, if not more. This is her first time.
I swallow my shit because this isn’t about me. It’s about her. I grab hold of her braids and tilt her head back.
“It’s fine. Touch me any way you want,” I say against her lips.
I search her face as I lean in closer to take her lips. She lifts on her toes to complete the kiss, running her hands up my back and into my wet hair.
I groan into her mouth and take over the kiss. Gliding my hands down her smooth skin, I palm her ass and pull her flush to my body. We kiss each other hungrily.
Without breaking the connection, I reach to shut off the water. Shawna sucks my lower lip into her mouth, breaking my restraint. Her confidence is seeping through again.
I lift her onto my waist and start out of the shower. I want her so bad; I almost place her on the countertop and take her right here in this bathroom. However, I force myself to keep going.
Her first time should be special, more than a fuck on a countertop. I slow my kisses as that reality hits. I need to take my time with her.
Gently, I place her on the foot of the king-size bed. She reaches to cover her breasts and bites her lip shily. I stand looking down at her sexy body, the glow of the candles dances across her flesh.