Total pages in book: 71
Estimated words: 66099 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 330(@200wpm)___ 264(@250wpm)___ 220(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 66099 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 330(@200wpm)___ 264(@250wpm)___ 220(@300wpm)
“The fuck! What happened to her?” He grabbed me up from the bed like it was on fire. “Jace I’m fine, really. I was just thinking how much I love you. And how much less afraid I am because I have you.”
He rubbed his thumb along my jaw. “What are you afraid of baby?” Oh shit!
“Nothing, I was just generalizing.” Something flickered in his eyes and I felt pain.
“Jace, you know that if I ever lied to you it would be for a good reason right? That I won’t ever lie to you to hurt you, or do anything to hurt you for that matter.” He didn’t say anything and the breath I was holding started to hurt.
In the end he just kissed me really hard before putting me back on my feet and walking out of the room. I almost ran after him and told him; almost. I couldn’t bring myself to do it though.
I knew this trip may be the last bit of freedom I have. I’m not stupid, the place we were heading to had a full staff according to my mother in law. So why was my newly hired personal staff following us there? Hah!
“Okay, we obviously can’t talk here so we’ll wait until we land. I suggest we all get some sleep because we’ve already lost one whole day.” I’d fallen in love with Turkey. Jace was ready to scrap the rest of the trip to stay there and I barely convinced him not to spoil the trip for the others.
I stayed awake long after I heard the others slip into slumber. I wasn’t afraid, I was terrified. Not only of what Jace or even my parents would say. But of being resentful of the life that was growing inside me.
I have no doubt we could hire any number of nannies in the future if we so wished, but was that the kind of mother I wanted to be? Did I want to leave the care of my child to others while I went off and did all the things I’d dreamed of?
I felt tears escape my eyes and felt guilty that I was so indecisive. It wasn’t that I wasn’t happy. It’s just that I was also a little bit sad.
I want to tell him so badly, my buddy. I know he’s going to love us, baby and me. I know he’s going to be twice as crazy and if I have a girl… That thought had me sitting up in bed so fast I shook the others awake.
“I can’t have a daughter. No way, no how.” I don’t know what they found so hilarious about that but Valerie started grinning and before you know it, the five of us were howling with laughter.
This time it was all the guys standing in the doorway with those what the fuck faces. That just made us laugh harder until they looked at each other and left us alone.
Laughter through tears can be very refreshing. I felt much better. “Hey, seriously, I know I’m the newbie here, but I’ll be there for you, you’re good people. Plus, I think all our husbands are joined at the hip so it looks like we’re going to be in each other’s lives for a while. And I love babies.”
“Me too…”
“Me too…”
“He or she would just be a little younger than my baby brother. They can be playmates.” Cassie rubbed my tummy. So cute.
“Thanks guys. Now here’s the deal. I’m trying to time this throwing up thing. I was able to sneak into the hotel bathroom earlier and now again on the plane.”
“It just started so I don’t know how it’s gonna go tomorrow. I might need you guys early in the morning. I don’t know what excuse I’m gonna come up with, but…”
“Walking on the beach. If we get caught we’ll just say we were going for a walk on the beach to see the sunrise. It’s a private island, I don’t think they’ll be as anal as they were in Turkey.”
I snorted. “Have you met Jace?” She has no idea. He’s already lectured me about going in the water without him there. When I asked what happened to the lifeguards he’d hired he said they were for everyone else, I was his responsibility.
I sometimes wonder how long that would last. That attentiveness. But then all I have to do is look at his parents or mine, to know that it could last a lifetime. But with a new baby so soon….No, I’m not going to worry about it any longer, because that was obviously no help whatsoever.
Fatigue finally set in and we dropped off one by one. I was fast asleep for I don’t know how long when I felt him lift me from the bed. “Are we there?” I could’ve slept for another ten hours.